I ran across this on FB today. This describes exactly what I've been feeling for a long time. I came in here looking for my person, wanting to be someone's person. Why is it so hard for me? Everyone thinks of me as a friend. One of many typically, more an acquaintance.
Men really think of me as a friend and never have a clue I may like them. Do I not know how to flirt? Very possibly. But to me, you need to be friends first and that is what I pursue. I continually have had people tell me they just thought of me as a friend and would have to have some time to think of me differently.
I have gone out of my way to make friends and pursue friendships. Out of my introverted comfort zone. Sometimes I ride that high I sometimes get when I'm being outgoing and end up being too much. I ruin it in a day.
All I want is a safe space where I'm the priority and we always come back together. Safety. Honestly. Truth. Trust. Love. Home. Comfort. Together. It can look "different" but that is the core. My line is continually cast. Despite the loneliness at times, I haven't quite given up.
